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Crappy mood

2005-06-14T02:36:00.000-07:00

My eyes are on fire :\ Meaning na they're on fire... School starts tomorrow na and I'm scared. I'm too lazy to put everything here but I feel angry right now. Lagi naman eh. I miss people. And things. Like how things were. If that makes sense. I miss my friends. Yakult especially. I hate this crappy feeling I feel now :\ I feel like I'm going to die. I wish I could make a list of the people I want to kill but unfortunetly, I can't. There are 3 people I really, really want to kill right now. And no, I will not put their names here and why I want to kill them. Yeah and maybe I'm just being sensitive again and maybe jealous (?). But what can I do? I feel that eh. Wala akong magagawa kung ganyan ang nararamdaman ko. I don't know why I always feel this feeling na... Okay, lemme explain -- I'm happy. As in SUPER happy tapos someone comes and ruins the "moment". It's a complicated feeling but yeah, I feel that. RIGHT NOW. And I have felt that. Like since before pa. Years ago. I wonder why I always feel shitty. Well, yeah, I do deserve to be punished but still. Ba't parati nalang ganito ang "pakiramdam" ko?! :(

:(

2005-06-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

I feel shitty. I always feel shitty :\ Okay, nevermind! Yey! I love God! Hahaha :P Go figure. Anyways, gimmick tomorrow! Yey! And I'm going to wear tsinelas! For the first time ever! Hahaha! Okay well, I'm busy right now to say how I feel. Basta, everything's all nice now lol. Okay, not really but better than the past 30 minutes :D

Odd dream.

2005-06-11T22:37:00.000-07:00

I am too lazy again to update. To put down everything that happened yesterday here. Basta, yesterday was bad. My mom and I kept fighting and fighting. Hay nako.

I had a dream. A very odd dream. I was in a car. Maybe a pick-up, I can't remember really. And I sat at the backseat with two older girls (around 15-17) and an old guy who was driving us. And some other guy (15-17 also) in the passenger seat. And at the back, since pick-up ang sinakay namin, someone was there. I won't mention her/his name na. It was weird because we were going to Baguio. And the person at the back was annoyed with me, for some reason. It was just weird. I didn't know any of the people I was with. I did know the person at the back but I barely know her/him. And then I woke up. End.

Masakit ang ngipin ko :(

2005-06-10T05:08:00.000-07:00

Hello uli. It's 8 na and kinda nagmamadali. I wanna make this long even if I don't have anything good to put here. Last night, we watched Mr. & Mrs. Smith at Rockwell (of course). We got there early kasi we left early. I could've used the computer for 15 more minutes pero yung peste kong tatay made me hurry and stuff. I brought my iPod nalang and my phone. Saw Amanda sa Candy Corner. Ugh, I hate the Candy Corner lady. Go figure... Anyways, I saw Mads din. She also watched the movie. She didn't see me though. She did when we were nasa banyo. I was washing my hands tapos she goes "Hey" and I go "Hi". Hahaha! Tapos we passed by this Chinese resto. Kalimutan ko na yung name eh. North Park ata eh. I ordered sweet and sour pork nalang. yung boneless. I wasn't that hungry naman eh. I ate na kasi barbeque popcorn when we were watching the movie. What else? Then we went home na. And my parents were watching Debate w/ Pare and Mare. Tapos I heard "Mare" say 'Magandang umaga!' and I was like to my mom and dad, 'Umaga na?! What time is it?'. Then I ran to check the clock and it was past 1 so I texted Eilish. I greeted her haha. Happy Birthday, Eilish! Haha di naman niya toh binabasa eh :)) Gosh, 14 na siya. Sana maabutin ko pa yung birthday ko. Tapos we watched LOST. Eek, I love Ian Somerhalder! Asawa ko siya eh so malamang, I love him :P Bago ko siyang asawa. Matthew Fox is also haute. But not as haute as Ian. Ian's eyes are beautiful, I swear. Tapos after that, I slept na and I woke up at 11 something this morning. Took a bath and ate then went online. Talked to Kat nga pala at like 12 and I'm supposed to call her back. Eek :\ I will tomorrow... Chatted with Kate and Banina lang today. Wasn't in a good mood actually a while ago. I mean, I was but then I just "kept it to myself". I feel bad about something that involves somebody. Hopefully I'll get over it soon. Right now my teeth hurt so much - thanks to my bands. Yes, well I have nothing else sensible to say so goodbye.

BAGO NA NAMAN?!

2005-06-09T01:04:00.000-07:00

Hello. New blog again. I missed BlogSpot already. I still can't make layouts though but I can pick ;) Today, I went to Glorietta to get my picture taken for some medical insurance thing and for school. Palagi silang humihigi ng 1X1 pictures. Chatted with Kate this morning and last night. We're not so sure yet about the gimmick tomorrrow since Eilish can't go and the gimmick's actually for her. Birthday kaya niya bukas... But I'll go if at least 5 people will go. I bought a new watch, btw. Fossil. It's leather, again. Eek, poor animal :\ And we're going to watch Mr. and Mrs. Smith tonight! Yey! Adam Brody's there! Hahaha! Pero mga 9 pa yung movie eh. We're invited din nga pala to Manang Cheska's (di ako sure sa spelling) luau. I'm going to wear my Chucks though :)) Kahit na dapat naka-tsinelas lang ako doon. Debut niya. Wow, ang tanda na niya. She was on MTV once. Nagpa-request siya ng song haha. I watched MTV this morning and I was learning the steps ng First Day Funk. WAHAHA! Ang galing kaya! :P I like my new layout, btw. If only had Paint Shop Pro 8, I'd make my own :( I don't know anything about HTML. Well, I do know a little but not enough to make a nice and normal-looking layout. My stomach hurts... Kakain nalang ako ulit! Hahaha! Sige, layas na ako. G'bye.